Day 4: Is my creativity running out?

I have tried to keep my creative mojo flowing but for some reason I just can't do it anymore.  I know that every project has ups and downs and it may take me an entire year to reach my goals, but it is dang hard to be there doing things like putting yourself out there.  I am not going to quit after just 4 days but I will say that it is dang hard to stay motivated at times. 

The Ups:

• I jumped on the elliptical machine today and killed it.  Well I should say that I killed it for 18 minutes then gassed out, but I killed it.
• I have been reading a lot to try and get through some of my creative blocks.  I look forward to reaching new heights and I feel that I am close to a breakthrough but I know that it will take a lot of time.
• I slept a full night last night for the first time since my creativity break going into the Christmas season.  I know that this alone will help me get out of my rut.

The Downs:

• I am feeling that I am getting too caught up in my numbers and not having enough fun with the process.  
• My wife is stressing me out beyond my wits.  I have been trying to help her start a business by taking on multiple jobs, not spending money, and just overall working my butt off.  She insists on spending more than we make, buying things we agreed were not the right time, and then telling me our emergency savings isn't where it should be.  I don't know what to do, I assume it is a phase but the negativity and finger pointing are driving me insane.  I just hope that I can make it through this project without canceling it for her behalf.  I have always put others first and it has placed me in the bottom of a big hole that I cannot seem to get out of.

I plan on pushing through but could use some prayers this weekend as I just don't feel like I'm killing it as well as I should.  I'm not going to post my numbers today as I feel constantly checking is what is driving me mad this week. 

Until tomorrow that is my day on this great journey called life.

Day 3: Swallow Your Pride and Put Yourself Out There

I am heartbroken.  Not because of anything that has happened but because of the way that I have been treating myself lately.  I assumed that having set goals for 2019 would make the arbitrary changing of a new year easier, but it hasn't.  Then after traveling all day I got very sad when I took my Before pictures for this year.  I have really let myself go and I am very embarrassed by the fact that I have let myself go.  Looking at these pictures has made me very sad and feeling very self conscious of my body but the best way to move forward I feel is to put myself out there and show the entire transformation.  I guess the good news is that in three days I have lost 0.6 lbs which is a start.

So without further ado this post is gonna be super awkward for me mostly because I am putting myself out there for the world to see.  Be kind to me and know that we all start somewhere.

Okay so here are my stats for my goals this year.

• Twitter:  237/300
• Twitch:  6/50
• Weight 220.4/200

Day 2: It is hard to market yourself while traveling.

Today was one of those days where all I did was sit in a car and hope that good things happened while I was offline.  I have to admit that they have started to move along.  I have more people reading this blog every day than I imagined at the onset.  I really am having fun creating content for this blog as well as dreaming of when I can start to fully put my plan into action.  I have had so much fun during this build up interacting with the community and learning more about how to put myself out there.  

Todays Actions:

• Fitness:
• Yesterday I started tracking all of my calories using MyFitnessPal and have to admit that it is kind of scary to see how many calories you actually consume during the day.  I have also decided to do a "Dry January" to try and save some money as well as lose more weight towards my goals.  
• Today was hard as the food that was available during our trip was diner food or McDonalds.  I am at a deficit before my walk down to the restaurant tonight but I know that I will be over today so I will say that today is going to be chalked up to a failure.  Though tomorrow is a new day.
• Twitter:
• I reached out and thanked some of the folks that have really helped me want to become a content creator.  After listening to a podcast today about how to grow as an influencer I decided what was the worst that could happen and tweeted towards some of my favorite influencers.  I got many likes but no interaction.  That is okay I will continue to try and be a positive member of the community.

Goals:

• 6/50 Twitch Followers
• 237/300 Twitter Followers
• 135/200 Instagram Followers
• 221/200 or less pounds.   (I am still assuming that I am overweight as my belly has grown a lot this trip)

Side Note...…   My wife and I have decided that dry January will be starting as soon as we get home tomorrow as neither one of us wants to stay the night in Santa Fe and not try some of their delicious craft brews.

Day 1: A New Year

I didn't realize how hard this project was going to be but it is only the first day.  I did not do much today to advertise my page or do anything to grow any of my social media goals.  I did however start my fitness journey by restarting my fitness pal tracking.  It was really hard to go from eating crap food and drinking crap drinks to watching what I eat.  I am not sure if I will be joining any diet program but I will be working towards hitting that magic weight number that I outlined a couple of days ago.

So here we go I ended up with a calorie deficit of 80 and it said that in 5 weeks I could weigh as little as 211 lbs if I were to keep it up the same way that I did today.  I will be trying my hardest to bring that number down faster but hey I have officially started on one of my goals.

Sorry for the super short post today.  I have written so much this week that I hit a bit of a writers block and being away from my xbox and streaming computer complicates a lot of my goals until I get home.

225/300 twitter followers
6/50 twitch followers
221/200 lbs


Tomorrow is a traveling day so expect another short post just to check in.  I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year.

Day 0: Today is the last day of 2018

Alrighty folks it is time.  If you have not been following or read my other posts it is time for me to lay out the official goals of 2019.  I have spent a lot of time brainstorming these and I am excited to finally be ready to share with the world what I will be accomplishing this 2019.


Social Media:

50 followers on Twitch
300 followers on Twitter
20 subscribers on YouTube

Personal:

Read 30 Books this year
Keep a Blog of my progress every day of the year.
Be more attentive to my wife

Physical:

200 or less pounds of weight (Currently 221)
Be able to run 3 miles without stopping
Blue Belt in JiuJitsu
Improve flexibility enough to stop getting sore hips after long work/game sessions


Progress monitoring:

I will be posting the numbers at the bottom of each blog post before I finish.  The goals that are more subjective I will not be posting about but I will let you all know when I hit these goals.



Goal Tracking:

6/50 Twitch
235/300 Twitter
12/20 YouTube
221/200  Weight
White belt/ Blue Belt

Day --1: One day to goal launch

I have to admit that I am running out of ideas for the build up of my relaunch/rebrand next year.  I look forward to the many things that I will be accomplishing and maybe I have taken too much time to try and figure things out rather than just do things so here I am trying to learn all the things that I can in such a short amount of time.  No matter what is going on with this writers block type thing I feel like I can finally say that I am here and ready for the beginning of the new year.

Since I started these mini blogs a couple of days ago I have kept up on my daily Japanese lessons, it is so difficult to try and learn a new alphabet, especially when it is so completely foreign to me, but I am having fun learning and growing and look forward to the 365 days of growth I will be experiencing.  I have also posted these updates every day leading up to the new year and have decided I want to keep chronicling my journey on a daily basis.  Even if I do nothing to build content or to grow my hobby I will post here with a run down of the day and what I will be doing.  I have really enjoyed the time to reflect and grow with my content.  I have also been reading through the Steve Jobs biography and even though he was a jerk in his early life I have to admit the goals that this book has developed in me is worth the price of reading about such a jerk.  I know that he redeems himself in the end and that the 1980s were only a part of his empire but still he was mean.

I have also done something I thought I would never do.  I downloaded Swarm by Foursquare and have been using that to help with my social media marketing.  I know that this is not the best idea as it can lead to a stalking type situation but I do enjoy the fact that I can share if I choose to and use it to interact with others in meaningful ways.  We shall see how long I end up using it, or letting it post to social media I should say.

I am actually all set up for my launch tomorrow and am happy to say that tonight I will be going to the Botanical Gardens for their light display.  It should be an amazing thing to do and I look forward to the walk to get my mind off of all the things that I should be doing to market this blog/twitch/YouTube/Twitter campaign.  I think I have done the most that I can do and from here on out whatever happens will happen.

Goodbye 2018 and Hello 2019.  I hope you all have a wonderful new year and use it to grow in some way.

Come back tomorrow for the official 2019 goal list.

Day --2: Two Days till the New Year

This mini project of mine has been a lot of fun as I move towards starting my journey next year.  I hope that you all have been enjoying reading these small posts as much as I have enjoyed writing them.  Today is going to be a smaller post but one that is just as important as the previous ones have been.  I look forward to the challenges of 2019 and I look forward to the growth that I will experience, but I am also very excited for the opportunity I will have to read some of the greatest minds that have been released.

When I was younger I was always told that a wise man learns from his own experiences, the wiser man learns from others experiences.

I need to constantly remember that as I move into uncharted territory with my blogging, vlogging, video making, social networking, and streaming.  I do not need to reinvent the wheel, I just need to make it work for this community.

I am starting out my journey through reading the Steve Jobs biography.  He has become a great model for me in how to chase your dreams and create your own realities.  I look forward to finishing this book and looking at some other business leaders in a way that will help me to move forward with my dreams.  I do not know how far reading alone will take me but I know that through hard work and having a set of goals to get me there.

Some of the steps that I have been trying to get into the habit going into the new year that I hope to continue and improve on once the new year begins is going onto social media sites and commenting on others more than posting my own stuff.  It has been a lot of fun creating communities of people that I interact with rather than just posting my own stuff and hoping that I get noticed.  That leads me to a point that I want to make....     As I increase my brand on the internet I don't ever want to forget the hard work and networking that was required in the beginning.  I want to continue to pop into other peoples streams, YouTube channels, and twitter feeds and keep interacting with folks on all levels.  I think the biggest turn off is when people forget who they are as they grow and no longer relate on a personal level.  

Tomorrow is going to be the last brainstorming session before I start my 365 days of blogging.  I want to thank you all for coming in and reading my rants and raves about this new project.  I am doing this for me but the support that I have been getting has been so great that I can't even imagine doing it without you all.  Side note aside tomorrow is the last brainstorm day of how I'm going to work through some of my goals, after that on Day 0 I will be posting my official goals for the year as well as a plan for how to change goals for every week of 2019.

On January 1, 2019 I will be launching this project with a renewed passion and seeing how far it will really go.  Like Nas Daily I will be setting a goal for 365 days of content and see how far I can go.  I believe that we will be able to see a lot of growth together and I look forward to you all being along for the ride.  

Let us all make 2019 the most blessed and magical year that we have experienced.