Day 4: Is my creativity running out?

I have tried to keep my creative mojo flowing but for some reason I just can't do it anymore.  I know that every project has ups and downs and it may take me an entire year to reach my goals, but it is dang hard to be there doing things like putting yourself out there.  I am not going to quit after just 4 days but I will say that it is dang hard to stay motivated at times. 

The Ups:

• I jumped on the elliptical machine today and killed it.  Well I should say that I killed it for 18 minutes then gassed out, but I killed it.
• I have been reading a lot to try and get through some of my creative blocks.  I look forward to reaching new heights and I feel that I am close to a breakthrough but I know that it will take a lot of time.
• I slept a full night last night for the first time since my creativity break going into the Christmas season.  I know that this alone will help me get out of my rut.

The Downs:

• I am feeling that I am getting too caught up in my numbers and not having enough fun with the process.  
• My wife is stressing me out beyond my wits.  I have been trying to help her start a business by taking on multiple jobs, not spending money, and just overall working my butt off.  She insists on spending more than we make, buying things we agreed were not the right time, and then telling me our emergency savings isn't where it should be.  I don't know what to do, I assume it is a phase but the negativity and finger pointing are driving me insane.  I just hope that I can make it through this project without canceling it for her behalf.  I have always put others first and it has placed me in the bottom of a big hole that I cannot seem to get out of.

I plan on pushing through but could use some prayers this weekend as I just don't feel like I'm killing it as well as I should.  I'm not going to post my numbers today as I feel constantly checking is what is driving me mad this week. 

Until tomorrow that is my day on this great journey called life.