Day 14: I think I may be broken

There is a trope in the nerd pop culture community where the main character gets pulled into a loop that seems to break them.  This can be as complicated as Sheldon Cooper not getting his way and withdrawing from society as a whole and it taking his friends to pull him out, to as simple as the hero of a tale getting so stressed at the task at hand that they go on a journey not related to the task at hand in order to feel better about their lot in life, think Frodo.   No matter how you look at it, I think I may be there.  I woke up today and felt off all around, which is strange as I have finally kicked this flu and felt ready to go back to my daily grind, but something just felt a little off.

I made it through the day and was able to do my job to an extremely satisfactory level.  I didn't let anybody down and I also didn't go above and beyond to make anybody's life a better place.  After work I coached one of my students in weight lifting to get him ready for the track season, which is something that I enjoy doing normally, but today my mind was elsewhere for the entirety of the time.  In fact it has taken me 30 minutes to just write this much, I had to turn on some Mozart to try and calm my mind enough to make sense of my thoughts.  Anyway going back to the story at hand, I have finally gotten my appetite back from being sick and felt that I wanted some McDonalds for dinner.  I got three sandwiches because I was hungry and made the mistake of eating all three of them.  I can say now that you have never felt gastrointestinal discomfort like gouging McDonalds after three weeks of clean eating.  I feel like I am going to explode and I can't even sit and concentrate anymore.

Enough on this strange headspace of mine.  I do have some excitement that is going to be coming down the line tomorrow at 5:00 PM EST from the Elder Scrolls Online development team.  They will be sharing their roadmap for the year of 2019 and with the fact that I have decided that my Twitch stream will be heavily influenced by ESO this year I am excited to see what some of the content will be.  I have really enjoyed where the game has gone and I look forward to seeing where it will go in the future, especially with the massive let down that is World of Warcraft this cycle.  Anyway I will write a little tomorrow about what was said on the stream if I am able to watch any of it.  I need to pick up my car from the mechanic tomorrow around the same time which may impact how much I know.

Anyway I feel that this ramble of a journal post has gone on long enough, I will catch you all tomorrow and thank you for being a member of this wonderful community.  I appreciate every single one of you.