Day 20: A look ahead.

I am constantly being shown that people are decisive and unwilling to bend no matter how the facts seem to be shown to them.  I know that sounds very defeatist but it is the unfortunate reality of the life that we live in right now. I was out on a date with my wife last night when the video of the high school kids taunting an American Indian surfaced.  I know that people have released other videos trying to make the kids seem like good people but whether they were the ones that circled the others or they were being targeted I hate that we live in a society where people mock and berate others.  I don't know what that means for me or my goals, I just wanted to get off my chest the feeling that our government has created a series of monsters that seem to go wherever they can and don't listen to each other anymore.  While on this date I had the chance to look up some Fred Rogers quotes which made me remember that there was a time when people were being taught through the programming that they enjoy that everyone deserves to be treated with respect and love.

I find it very difficult to feel love all the time, especially as I am trying to up my internet presence and leaning towards some content creation.  I find myself going down these rabbit holes of hate and getting very disheartened at the aspect of keyboard warriors spouting their nonsense to all that come across it.  I know that I am in a dark place but this week has got me down.  I decided that I want to be positive in a world of negativity.  I believe that all people, all over the world, want the same thing.  They want to make themselves as happy as they can without others telling them that they are wrong for trying to be happy. I don't want to make anybody feel inferior for any reason, or make anybody feel that they are not good enough for whatever reason.

This is why I started to stream.  I decided that there are a lot of people in the streaming community that create content in a trolling way, that use their fame to put others down, and try and make others feel bad about trying to be the best that they can be.  I want to try and change that.  I believe that people are innately good and that by streaming in a positive way I will help grow a community that is also kind and genuinely wants to make a difference.  I want to challenge myself to do the same with my interactions on twitter this year and make it so people feel that they are blessed to have come across me in this life.

I know that this is a slightly different tone to most of my other posts but I do appreciate those of you that have stayed and read all the way to the end.  I look forward to bringing more content your way throughout the year and for many years to come.

6/50 Twitch

250/300 Twitter   (Lost one this week, Twitter really is a difficult medium)

12/20 YouTube

215/200  Weight  (One pound closer to my goals)

White belt/ Blue Belt

132/200 Instagram  (three less than last week, but I haven't been posting so I can understand the drop off)